the longing...



Monday, July 30, 2007
「 the longing. 7:01 PM 」

okay last day before the reach cambridge econs summer camp. going to changi airport at 6.30am in the morning when the plane flies at 9am lol (typical kiasuness).
in any case im almost done packing, ya and gonna remind everyone not to message or call me from tmr morning onwards till i return...ok so take carez everyone...

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Sunday, July 29, 2007
「 the longing. 9:04 PM 」

ahhhh...how could i be so stupid and careless? one of the few times i feel so pek chek and crappy. feel like swearing and swearing non-stop. arg. well maybe to others its not that important...but to me, its the first time and it really affects me alot. damn.

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Saturday, July 28, 2007
「 the longing. 12:13 PM 」

ok no more stupid posts.

two and a half day more till the flight, it had really been kinda tough or rather troublesome to prepare for all that work of getting the lecture notes, informing teachers and stuff. actually currently there is still much to be done on monday. well now i believe i can be quite sure ill be sharing room with ah kun...at least thats good cause im not familiar with anyone else haha...but in any case, i think i better start packing...said i wanted to start yesterday but i was slacking the whole time from when i got home. mind too filled with other matters probably. ok i think i go do it rite now...before i do it too late and realise i have to go buy smthg when its already too late haha then ill get chided constantly by my mum. XD

hmmm...tmr might go buy jeans and also socks for my friend....

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it doesnt matter how one feels anymore...maybe i should just forget all these. it isnt my style to keep brooding over life anyway.

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Friday, July 27, 2007
「 the longing. 7:24 PM 」

my heart feels a sense of emptiness, yet how does something voided hurts? and i am here unknowing why it is like that.

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
「 the longing. 8:42 PM 」

yesterday i was in the car with my mum when she suddenly no-link glanced at my hair and gave a very random remark. "your hair is so curly!"
okay. then i was like o_O 'u only noticed that now?'
then she was like 'last time got so curly meh?'
so i went 'yaaaaa????'
which then i went off to complain about how awful it is to have curly hair, thanks to my dad.
i can swear she replied 'ya' when i said curly hair looks awful.
then afterwards i continued complaining, about how my sis had very curly hair but it looks much better now that she went to rebond, and loads of crap which went on for quite a bit, then she replied something like 'its not that bad la'
i went like O_O didnt she just agreed with me?
which then i said 'arent you contradicting urself?'
then its her turn to go o_O and said 'got meh?'
i sighed and the topic came to a close.

ok thus comes the end of my super-random-out-of-the-monotonous-life-event post. thank you for reading.

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
「 the longing. 7:06 PM 」

i feel quite happy today. well there really are very very few things that can make me happy these days...but well one of those few things happened in school today haha so ya. (secret secret) in addition, tmr is wednesday!
talk about monday blues. lol but like my friend, ive got my monday blues, tuesday greens, thursday red, and sunday yellow. monday blues in obvious, but in any case tuesday and thursday are just as long! (ignore the colour differences XD no diff.)
ya ok hopefully sunday is quite obvious too...cause the day after sunday is monday! that is truely a cause for concern.
but watever. wednesday and friday are short days which really make my day. sectionals can tend to get quite boring, but at least i can do hw at times (dun tell anyone haha) which somewhat eases my boredom.
and i like combined practices. fun. ^^

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Monday, July 23, 2007
「 the longing. 8:07 PM 」

boo life is beginning to have no meaning. im here clutching dearly to what is left of my "life". XD

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dun flame me for using that pic...i just need something besides a paintbrush set or smthg XD

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Sunday, July 22, 2007
「 the longing. 8:25 PM 」

for some reason im starting to stop looking forward to weekends. well not entirely, since i dun have to go to school...and thats good in every way!
but well last time my weekends would be typically: play whole day, then sunday night chiong hw.
but i think im beginning to learn how to put computer behind hw. (note the beginning...still trying)
haha but yea i got achievement k! i did most of the work on saturday and finished all up on sunday afternoon. now i kinda feel empty cause i got no hw to rush at night lol. but then at the same time i keep feeling the need to go revise past chapters (first signs of becoming a mugger)...but as its only in the beginning stage...i still got this urge NOT to go study. ya thats y im typing this out rite now eh? ok maybe that urge will go off sometime soon. ya. o_O

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Saturday, July 21, 2007
「 the longing. 7:26 PM 」

there are some things in life that is just fine whether its given a yes or a no. however, u still do feel quite bad when u get a no.

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ok soz that i let my blog sleep for so long,
but somehow previously when try to create a new post, this page where im typing in now doesnt load at all...and give me a white screen -.-'
ok well here i am to post some weird rantings that no one reads anyway XD

ok so what is happening in my uneventful life.
yesterday i went with a small group of ppl to ST aerospace engineering. quite cool la all the engines and a few biggy planes yea. and security was really quite tight. lol but funny thing is that when my mum was signing the consent form, she told me she used to work that before i was born haha.
acutally wanted to pull out of the trip lor. but then the teacher was telling everyone that we cant pull out cause they already sumbitted of ICs number and stuff. yea so i had to miss my chem olympiad training.

sian, this is the third time im missing the training already...which also means ive never went even once before. think the teacher in charge a bit frustrated. XD

ok so now to the important part. about my midyear results. it suxs. a lot. ya. i stil remember before the holidays that i was so confident to be able to do well, knowing that ill really put in effort during the holidays. guess i couldnt and didnt after all. just no 'willpower'. thats y i didnt do well for my Os after all and couldnt miss vj by one point. stupid me.

but anyway due to my horrible results, my mum has to meet my civics tutor -.-'
yea but that was like two days ago and didnt went as bad as i thought. what worse was what came immediately after that...had a little talk with ms wong..the teacher in charge of the econs trip im going end of this month. yea then it became quite vexing with her bringing out the number of days...the number of hours for each subject...haha. but anyway ive decided to quit my mmorpg game. and start studying seriously everyday. hard but ill try! later going out to library to study...

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