Min Xiang
4 Oct 1990
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
time passes and it all blows past, and now there are but only traces left until it all dies down. still searching until the last minute. then when it ends perhaps it would be better. better for you?
well anyway im sarcastically sorry that im not as capable as u have expected me to be, so dun start comparing me with the outstanding, because i am not. even if i get into some good jc in the first place, you arent and wun be and especially happy or wat, so dun start telling me stuff regarding how i should be better in an inferior jc, because u dun noe anything. how can i not tell u wat everyone else is doing, and u tell me not to compare with others, when you are doing the exact same thing in trying to compare me with wat u think of as an ideal student. because im not one. watever i do, you guys wun be satisfied, watever i accomplish, you guys will jus take it for granted, watever i didnt or cant accomplish, you guys will demand it of me or rub it in my face y i didnt achieve it. even something as simple as being encouraged by you needs me to go to u crying y u never gave me any words of encouragement, but only critisize and critisize. i seriously believe you are addicted to scolding me. not being able to scold me really makes u uncomfortable eh. wat bs.
Friday, November 23, 2007
msn nick: my life is slipping away second by second
holidays passing so fast! yet i feel so sian. like whole day rot at home, nothing special to do.
wheres CO camp...how come dun have de. i need smthg interesting.
then again i cant help it but i just dun feel like taking my holiday hw out to do when i got so much time on my hands. maybe i should force myself to take them out tmr. then once they r layed out there i will be able to sit down and do with more ease. yep.
but for now, ill continue to rot, living my life seemingly similar to a pig. eat, play, eat, play, eat, play, sleep. wat a boring cycle. im going crazy. save me.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
to you, i might be just a friend, but to me, you are a very important part of my world. so what am i exactly to you.
Monday, November 19, 2007
second and final day of packing yesterday, we ended up slacking around after doing a lot and finishing quite early, waiting for the ending where we recieve some "allowance", a "discount voucher" and a shirt.
after that i pang sei everyone going for dinner and went off alone to the mrt. sorry guys XD
after that took the train to tampines and went to eat with my family who were already eating. lol i was so surprised y they went out to eat...it was my parent's wedding anniversary. ok so watever after that we went to the airport to fetch my eldest sis back home who is returning to singapore for holidays.
co prac in an hour...like after how many years sia. feels damn weird to go again. but watever jus go la.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
omg so tired. today we were part of the packing crew for shift 1 so we were supposed to be packing from 9am to 7pm. but we had a drink station briefing from at the same time so we were spared the first few hours of packing, not say its good, but yea maybe its kinda good. lol. anyway despite the fatigue acquired and stuffiness of the hall, somehow it was quite satisfying. duno y.
Monday, November 12, 2007
year end bash just over...it was kinda a waste of time, considering we did nothing much but sit around and talk crap (considering theres not much crap to talk when the music was blasting so loud u have to shout to hear each other). but yea was still something out of the ordinary.
got reminded of studies just now and kinda felt downcasted. have been playing like nothing else matters recently...dunno when im gonna hit my books again during the holidays. i think its really necessary.
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
YAY. OP is OVER. FINALLY. lol i was so nervous in the morning that i could barely eat my breakfast. and kept going to toilet lol. zzz
the presentation was quite okay, but the Q&A was really kinda crapped up lol. but yea watever. its over! and now I&R (named idiot and retard) is left...due tmr. ok last stage!
(feeling a kind of emptiness, a feeling of being left out, but perhaps a feeling that its all simply overreacting)
Monday, November 05, 2007
Flavor of Life (eng trans)
When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness.
The flavor of life
Stuck midpoint between friends and lovers,
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
what’s causing this frustration baby
When you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesn’t
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life
Sweet talk and tasteless conversations.
it sparks no interest in me
even when things do not go the way you want
it doesnt mean you’ve thrown your life away
When asked ‘ whats wrong?’
I answer ‘its nothing’
The smile that disappears after goodbye
It’s unlike me
The more i wish to believe in you,
For some reason it hurts even more
‘i like you a lot’ instead of ‘i love you’ sounds more like you
the flavor of life
the period when you suddenly remember the scent of someone you had almost forgotten
I want to be able to openly and honestly cherish the white purity of the falling snow more
A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to spend it with you
when you say thank you to me,
for some reason it hurts,
Like a magic spell that doesnt
get undone even after the good bye.
a hint of bitterness
The flavor of life
Saturday, November 03, 2007
have been too busy with my game recently to blog lol. well our grp OP is nxt tuesday. so quite a bit more of the torture but now im actually quite confident for my speech already ^.^ till then.