the longing...



Saturday, September 29, 2007
「 the longing. 4:31 PM 」

i was telling my sis that i want a new bag for my bdae since the one i got was getting kinda old...the one -> a white bag my sisters got for me last yr for my birthday. lol at first i didnt really like it but then i got to start using it a lot.
well anyway she said okay and bought it early. well she was kinda regretting choosing that bag afterwards lol cause she didnt really like the design of a very worn look. haha but despite that i still kinda like it. thanks a lot sis!

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Thursday, September 27, 2007
「 the longing. 4:44 PM 」

omg omg omg the last paper for the promos just ended. one month of studying ends here muhahaha. like a big burden off my shoulders. well anyway time to slack. and sleep. was chionging maths last night like nobody's business...only slept at 1.30am and had to wake up at 5am to finish up. geez. hard life. anyway its over already so im kinda glad...now can suan those still mugging. haha talk about being an idiot.

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Monday, September 24, 2007
「 the longing. 9:35 PM 」

first day of exams today. im really kinda stressed rite now, with econs and physics tmr. arg. today we witness the free rider problem. due to non-excludability of the use of the public toilets in the school, free rider problem occurs, except that instead of having a missing market with no demand, the demand here exceeds the maximum supply as the toilets are rivalry goods. thus, there is a shortage and market fails. in this case, teacher intervention occurs, however as large amount of enforcement is required, teacher intervention fails due to lack of teachers.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
「 the longing. 10:30 PM 」

today is like the last day of school, well actually not, but the last day of school before the promos, not considering the hopefully more slack days after that. would be much more enjoyable if promos arent in like 4 days time staring right at my face. geez i still remember when they were saying wat 80 days left. lol i wonder if the work ive done so far and including the work i can get in these last few days would be enough. i hope they would be. they have to be.

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Monday, September 17, 2007
「 the longing. 11:25 PM 」

im feeling sleepy. but its kinda hard to sleep when u know that everyone is studying. never mind i shall sleep anyway XD
too tired. nitez to the world.

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Sunday, September 16, 2007
「 the longing. 12:19 AM 」

arg stress getting over my head.
one more week left, im still optimistic that i can finish all my revision in this essential week. thou now i got a new concept of thinking about the end date of the exams instead of the starting date, makes my life much comfortable, especially since there is only a four days difference.
anyway seriously i feel like ive never taken an exam this seriously before, not even O lvls. the Os are like just do lor then u get watever then go whereever...but ive never ever considered the prospect of getting retained before...so it really must not happen. i dunno, i also dun want to risk having to drop any subject to H1...ya so everyone lets work hard

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Friday, September 14, 2007
「 the longing. 10:06 PM 」

slowly building back the wall

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Thursday, September 13, 2007
「 the longing. 10:58 PM 」

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world

-Overcome the Thousands of Nights
Bleach: Memories of Nobody Ending Theme
Band: Aqua Timez
(English Translation)

just finished the bleach movie...quite nice, thou that means i didnt study tonight. ahhh...anyway im feeling slightly better now. zzz back to studying.

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i was feeling down today. its like it suddenly hit me that im not good as i would like to think i am, that im actually quite alone. was all that just fragments of my imagination? or a syndrome of thinking, dreaming too much? if so, please let me wake up before my dreaming gets to the stage of overboard and then the impact of realisation would be even harder when it comes. so from now, im not gonna be wishing anything anymore.

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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
「 the longing. 8:50 PM 」

today my chinese teacher was asking a raise of hands of who have a blog, which i did. (despite it being simply for pure crap, this still considered a blog rite?)
then i think some ppl around me was quite surprised cause wat i heard was like,"omg mx you have a blog?"
the tone was a bit...erm...i dunno wat to make out of it i guess. but yea my blog is quite private in that not many ppl noe about it. which i like i guess. haha so cant blame me that its very quiet in here.
"zhe li zhen an jing" (not a graveyard thou...)

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Monday, September 10, 2007
「 the longing. 8:09 PM 」

(me and my da jie)
me: why is life so sian?
sis: cos its so sian.
me: nice try, but that doesnt answer the question.
sis: erm...its like putting mice in a container, letting them run and run and run until they die from exhaustion. we're like mice, equivalent to the rat race.
me: wah. so sad. how to get out of the container?
sis: dream.
me: ahhhhh icicic.
sis: your future depends on your dreams. so just go to sleep.
me: wise sia...

(me and my er jie)
me: how to get out of the container?
sis: switch on laptop and watch my videos. and pretend im not inside. ie.. my soul floated away liao
me: ....

i have two nice very interesting and nice sisters :P
anyway i guess ill put back the tagboard...i took it down before i went cambridge cause i found it serve not much purpose...but anyway if u happen to come here...pls tag it to maintain it :P arigato.

im probably thinking too much but why do so many things appear good but just cant seem to be good all the way...

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Saturday, September 08, 2007
「 the longing. 6:50 PM 」

today was a super super slack day, just woke up after a good 2 and half hour sleep and notice how late it is already XD but still, it was really quite enjoyable today, thanks for being there.
ok im starting to get sian-ed again as today is saturday already...and tmr is sunday! wats the link? sunday is the last day of the holidays which simply just flew past with a "whew!"
omg kinda sian-ed to think of going back to school. days after days of revision. ok must hang out for two more weeks...

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Thursday, September 06, 2007
「 the longing. 8:27 PM 」

went to jurong island today for the first time in my life for ICES open house. actually the whole place was quite like wat i had imagined, and the flare towers with those flames are really quite cool.
it turned out to be quite okay, started with making ice cream with liquid nitrogen
(-196 degress celcius). because its so cold, all the liquid were frozen more or less into the ice creams as the liquid nitrogen was poured in slowly. hell lot of smoke bursting out i tell u. quite cool.
then we made our own slime...which is polymerisation by adding two solutions. sian cause my slime spoiled in my bag before i manage to bring it home and show everyone o_O
the lab tour was quite okay. the equipments were considerably cool, just that i didnt understand wat the researchers were explaining half of the time...ok i admit it. much more than half.
well even thou i was the only sorang person from mjc, i kinda enjoyed it, despite the bad bladder problem at the start of the trip -.-'
geez very tired. dun think can mug today...arg.

o ya and i found out something interesting today. zhss is zirconia-hafnia solid solution

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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
「 the longing. 6:12 PM 」

haha one of the very few times blogger lets me blog on my pc.
lol this is one of my well-spent holidays in my life, though "well-spent" means really completely burnt on studying.
well, at least tmr ill be slacking my afternoon away as i go for ICES open house. sounds fun, which is why i signed up in the first place, but i happened to be the only sole person in the whole of mjc to sign up for it. omg so freaking sorang...and in uniform somemore gosh. well just make the most out of it ya.
i chose to go for ICES cause it happened to be the RI i signed up for for the a star attachment program, which i didnt get in cause i was playing around during the interview (lol...-.-'). frankly im quite glad cause i dun think i would like to spend 4 and 1/2 weeks there and having to spend so so so much time travelling to jurong island every morning and getting home so late. boo.

well in any case, i found out today that its best to study with a friend, as two persons isnt too noisy, and can occasionally have a person to talk to or ask questions when u get bored. lol today i was so freaking bored when i stayed back, and the weather was so freaking hot until i really got very tired and went back home at like 3+pm instead of the supposed 7pm. ah geez watever. i like sleeping.

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Monday, September 03, 2007
「 the longing. 10:47 PM 」

sigh. blogger and msn msgner really hates me on my pc. i cant post there, so im using a laptop to post rite now. nothing much to say thou haha. lost all my thoughts. zzz tmr physics spa and im still here watching tv when i havent even revised the format much.
well anyway i was thinking of how boring life is when all u can expect from the day after is more boring and sian-ed mugging sessions. compared to the past when i can always look forward to the nxt day when i can play more of my game and improve here and there for example, its like having nothing to look forward to at all. oh well.

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