the longing...



Tuesday, September 30, 2008
「 the longing. 5:51 PM 」

i got home really sick and down with serious flu a few hours ago, with me sneezing uncontrollably and sniffing every few moments and feeling really uncomfortable. arg i hate flu. sniff sniff sniff. lucky tmr no school. hari raya~ but actually if i pon sch no one cares also lol. sian if i not sick at first want to play ball with the others de...even brought pe kit liao. but nvm la. going into the sun will spoil my untanning ji hua. lol. eh and sowie hor. my blog is not emo and loser la. its jus that my life is so sian.

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Monday, September 29, 2008
「 the longing. 9:43 PM 」

my eyes seems to be popping out more often than it should recently.

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Saturday, September 27, 2008
「 the longing. 2:14 PM 」

last 2 weeks of school starting nxt week. more or less got all my prelims results. some quite jiat lat haha. time to work towards my A lvl goals.

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Thursday, September 25, 2008
「 the longing. 10:43 PM 」

listening to: hanging by a moment by lifehouse

really tired right now. just now double period GP almost died k. head throbbing like hell. ah shrugs. tmr will be the last day of normal timetable, and also tmr econs tut will be the last offical tutorial in jc (not considering GP)...
well i got back all the papers except econs so far, ok la can see improvement. lol. especially my maths which jumped 5 grades. chem was horrible but there isnt any reason to dwell on it. could be worse la, still got like 12 marks improvement from mid year. now just see how to improve. by like a lot of grades. basically to do more memory work. cause they spam inorg and physical la. when i nv really studied physical cause i spent most of my time on organic for some reason. sian.

i dun think will do well for econs lei. scared-ed. but this time must try to find ways to improve liao...given how i neglected econs once again...(spent 1h on macro and 1/2h on micro) but the suspense will have to wait till nxt week. cause they mark so slow. lol. 8 days left. till another boring mugging day. unless i decided to treat myself on that day and not mug. zzz

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008
「 the longing. 6:04 AM 」

the truncated timetable looks all right i guess. could have been worse. i like the short days thou. and now its 10 days and counting. today would get back chem. now only worried about maths and econs. pass i happy liao.

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Sunday, September 21, 2008
「 the longing. 6:28 PM 」

thinking of taking a break.

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Talk, Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

-secondhand serenade, your call

reality is far from imagination.

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Saturday, September 20, 2008
「 the longing. 6:29 PM 」

my mum bought...chocky! which is like an imitation of pocky i guess.



which i then gave two huge sticks to nat when i met her up at the cafe last night cause i think its so cool. too bad she saw b4.

well anyway, i just came back from outing at pulau ubin...quite fun...but im seriously black now...hoping it'll fade soon la. and then my neck feels hothot...like tio burn. at least im not like benedict and dq who r like lobsters. took some nice photos with my phone i think. first 3 from chek jawa and the last 2 is of the quarry. wah seriously tired like dunno wat. arh. finally bought a pin. now can pump my basketball. yay...















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Friday, September 19, 2008
「 the longing. 6:29 PM 」

A chance/opportunity is like a burglar. when it comes, u have no idea at all. but its only when its gone that u find that u have heavy losses.
lol.

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Thursday, September 18, 2008
「 the longing. 5:28 PM 」

FUN THING TO DO: go to http://google.com and search "elgoog",(google backwards), then press 'im feeling lucky'...for the bored.


prelims finally over today. haha then straight away go play basketball sia. play till 1pm. in and out la. cause the sun also so scorching. but we all finally stopped when its started raining. then i think i tio sunburn (pls la the sun so hot.) haha but still fun to play la. cause i quite on-form today. then benedict was saying i took tongkat-ali. rofl.
ah reached home and ate at like 3+. then now quite tired. and a bit feverish, but nothing serious i hope. must drink more water.
now like dunno wat to do. cause prelims over then theres no need to study that much anymore, but cause the past 3 weeks ive been at nothing besides my books...then a bit addicted to studying. LOL. WAIT. no im jk. but theres this urge to continue studying. which is necessary la. A lvls like 45days left only. then somewhere i dun think my prelims also good until where.
BTW. ive just learnt how to sing Blind by lifehouse. i think i sing not bad sia. LOL. nxt time hear me sing.

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Monday, September 15, 2008
「 the longing. 9:27 PM 」

abit tired rite now. played bball in my uniform from 5-6+. in uniform. and my pink nike shoes. until my entire uniform soaked. hope i didnt wear down my shoe sia. completely not made for sports. zzz if i knew i was gonna play then i would have brought pe and wore my black shoes. haiz stupid me jus cant resist temptation. maths tmr, i dare say ive done adequate practice today for my stats, just a bit worried for the pure maths part. then after tmr morning will left two mcq papers which r seemingly nothing but actually very impt bah.

erm i really want to know why am i blogging everyday. i also dunno. come to think of it, there were times before where ive been quite avid about blogging, then there were also times when i stopped blogging for months or so if i remembered correctly. maybe i just feel like wasting ppl's time reading weird random stuff here. geez.

its now completely back to when nothing had happened at all. if so then it may be better if it hadnt started at all.

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Sunday, September 14, 2008
「 the longing. 11:08 PM 」

its my birthday!!! yay. i mean my birthday on the chinese calender. haha but watever. my mum bought me a new wallet jus now cause she tot my fossil wallet spoiled. but ok la looks not bad. cheap cheap de but still got my mum's love. lol. and my birthday cake is some kind of free small banana cake that can be traded for with some voucher thingy or smthg. XD

anyway, i hurt my left thumb today =( when playing basketball in the basement i whacked my own thumb with my right palm. o_O first time ever nia. damn pain. must be joke sia.

seriously. what am i doing.

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given three days off exams, suddenly feel very slack as if exams over. haha. if this goes on im gonna have to get my ass out of my house tmr.

today is mid autumn festival...but my dad is in shanghai rite now...then cant go out to celebrate as a family or smthg. but then again ive had really more than enough mooncakes to eat these few days. rawr. i think i really got to stop eating so many or ill become sick. actually im already feeling sick. zzz. and grow fat also.

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Friday, September 12, 2008
「 the longing. 9:37 PM 」

surprisingly ive lots of blog about today. so at least those ppl who come to my blog to read crap (or watever else), ull have lots of nonsense to read~
well anyway ive just finished my dinner...at 9.35pm. rawr. so full cause too late then abit not hungry liao...
anyway. i reached school at 9am today. go there to study lor. actually also dunno do wat y go so early. bo liao sia. cause today friday so paper starts at 2.30pm. then i walked around also never see any jc2 at all like that. cause most too lazy to come so early, then others having bio paper in the morning. so i sian i went library look thru some case studies and answers for a bit.
then at 9.45am or so i saw a huge net inflow of people into the library (ill take it that the bio paper just ended)...then i saw junjie who asked me to go up but i told him later cause no aircon upstairs yet. then like 10min later i went up saw him with two of his friends so i went to him and then nothing to say. lol. so i went off and buy pocky to eat and started walking around the school due to boredom when i saw mich and joy. then i walk a few more rounds still dun see anyone so i went to disturb them. lol. sorry michelle if i disturbed ur studying if i stress u out haha...
then took the paper...which was like. erm..........
theres two questions which kinda stunned me la. nothing to say but wtfness. in the end i just wrote nonsense lor. dun even noe wat im writing myself le. now i quite worried about my econs sia. my essay also missed out some important points lor. jiat lat.
but who cares. weekend le! finally. one week of stress finally over. i think the stress is getting onto my face in the form of pimples. ew.
then after econs went to play bball with benedict, diqiang and yakai, then with some jc1s. laughing at all the 'ru lai shen zhang' marks on their shirt, compared to my clean shirt cause i prefer to stay away from ppl crowding around me and jus shoot.
then stopped at like 7.30pm? took bus home all the way cause both my parents were out. sian. reached home at 9.15pm or so, freaking tired la and acheing everywhere. then no one opened the door for me. i called. then sian i walked downstairs to the backyard and knocked on my maid's window then she come open.
ya anyway i should be sleeping soon...haiz so tired. then tmr see if can get myself to start doing maths. see if my paper2 can save my paper1. but dun think so. lol.
ANYWAY. nxt monday is my chinese bdae. haha. thats y no paper for me. cause i asked the school not to have exams on my bdae. and ta-da. seriously. no.
im over it =)

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Thursday, September 11, 2008
「 the longing. 5:20 PM 」

im not gonna blog today. oh wait. i just blogged. eh.
u noe that this is supposed to be hidden and not be seen by anyone rite? i guess its really quite ineffective to do this...but well who cares.

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
「 the longing. 6:37 PM 」

chem paper 3 today. first time in my life i got so stunned by a paper that i panicked. i was like wtfwtfwtf this is ridiculous. but well at least i managed to gain my composure after a bit more doing and managed to think of how to do some of those stuff that i was not thinking straight so didnt noe how to do at first. ah shrugs. tmr is another chem paper and also maths paper 1...both which i must score in...haiz am down with flu today...especially during the paper jus now. arg. then it gets a bit embarressing when u sneeze then it echos through the silent hall. haha but i guess no one bothers to notice. i seriously hope it gets better by tmr or ill be a bit jiatlat there sniverling when doing papers...
zzz i think this should end soon.

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Tuesday, September 09, 2008
「 the longing. 10:27 PM 」

new definition: electromotive force is a force produced when an electron gains motivation. (measured in N, newtons)

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2 days down, 6 days of exams to go. then its much more mugging all the way till A lvls. today was nothing good nothing bad. just like that lor, the only interesting thing i tot about was for the question which asks u to suggest a place on Earth which kinda boosts the speed of a vessel or smthg. so i wrote equator, but i was thinking...hmm...Singapore!?! seriously. if i wrote singapore i can demand that its correct =P

getting tired of constantly getting troubled by this. ah shrugs. how dumb can i get.

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Monday, September 08, 2008
「 the longing. 9:52 PM 」

the night sky lights up as a lightning bolt flashes across the horizon, just like how my eyes light up when i see your face, yet fall away as i remembered that you have no idea who i am, just like how the sky returns to a blanket of pitch darkness as the light fades away. a thunderstorm approaches.

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physics paper 3 was like quite okay la. but i nv noe XD hope can do well.
tonight is gonna be one painful night due to my previous neglecting of econs. haha. heck la. see if i study so little for econs still can do well like mid year and block test. ahahahahaha. or bank on case study. rofl.
well anyway good luck to everyone taking prelims! im gonna copy liwei's idea and make some wallpaper to put on my phone to remind me to study. lol. zzz sian no matter wat i still hate studying. thou i like doing well. how.
if i did something to offend you, please tell me.

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Saturday, September 06, 2008
「 the longing. 6:49 PM 」

Lifehouse - Whatever It Takes
- a song i first heard from et's ipod and then went to get it

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

seriously, i dun noe what ive done wrong.

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Friday, September 05, 2008
「 the longing. 8:22 PM 」

tired. and tmr is just another day at school. look at all the stealth fighters mugging at home thou. then come out imba results. haiz.
ok i guess thats the end. kind of numbed.

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Thursday, September 04, 2008
「 the longing. 8:17 PM 」

went to school in the morning, but ended up going to west plaza to eat lunch along with the ppl who went for chem consultation along with mr kua, except diamyore who didnt bring money to eat. nothing to say to that but ROFL. then when we left the food court i was looking at the froggies, then mr kua started talking about tian ji zhou...then said wat after A lvls he treat our class go geylang eat tian ji zhou, claypot, etcetc. dunno who interested thou. lol. then after a while i suddenly talked about my sassy girl then mr kua said he got the korean movie vcd so he suggested us to go liwei's house to watch after that dinner. lol i think if that really happens it would be kewl. but then again dunno how many interested. haha. i am. left school at 6.40pm. sleepy.
seriously, its probably more interesting to study with anyone else compared to u. lol.

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i rmb the lightbulb jokes from dunno how many years ago...so just bringing it back. i dun understand some sia. and the one about mj is not true? and some r quite bad lol.

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’re too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They’ll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they're able to change it for ACJC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’ll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows* )

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?

Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let's do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.

Q: How many MJ students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They’ll find ways out of the dark.

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.

Q: How many MI students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. All of them are leaving after PAE. Needless for light bulbs.

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Wednesday, September 03, 2008
「 the longing. 5:43 PM 」

ok to whoever tagged my board with that comment...
well firstly digging out my eyeballs wun make me have better taste...its more to do with my mind so if i want to change my taste i have dig out my brain and alter it instead. though i really find nothing wrong with it?
well secondly, if u think of her that way...i have nothing to say k. just that u should keep it to urself wat. plus a lot more ppl dun think the same way...including me.
thirdly, thanks for ur compliment? but anyway dun worry i didnt think that we arent compactible...just probably got some problems needed to be settled out over time that others shouldnt be concerned about? plus i choose who i like so dun worry bout me k. i can think for myself.
actually i still wondering who u r. u can always tell me who u r, i wun beat u up or smthg.


well ANYWAY, i studied from 8+ till 5! (not counting the 45min lunch break at TASTO. man i dun really like cold food/sandwiches/wraps) big achievement for someone like me. reached airport expecting to find hyseng (my cambridge roommate) already there (he said over msn that he would start studying at mac at 7+), but i walked into mac and found no one at all. lol. well then i dun have his number so cant call him also. so i called jason hoping he'll have his no.? but jassoon was sleeping and only woke over my second call. sorry for waking u up k. surprisingly he doesnt have hyseng's no. anyway, i asked my ex-biz club ppl and got his number. geez he joker sia only woke at 8+. lol i think he reached at 9+. then later pangsei-ed me he went home at 4. walao. but i saw two of my vj-exclassmates lol. talk about muggers. but airport is still dominated by mj ppl. seriously.

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Tuesday, September 02, 2008
「 the longing. 2:16 PM 」

!!! omgomgomg. my blog is so damn boring. i bore myself. wow. gp exam over. 6 and a half more days.

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Monday, September 01, 2008
「 the longing. 6:00 PM 」

there is now a horrible scar wedged in when you hurt me deeper than you imagined which is seemingly impossible to heal, by making our differences jarringly obvious.

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